a grateful heart: the love in a mother’s heart

we came home from the hospital two weeks ago today and overall, it’s gone really well. the recovery from my c-section has been very difficult and there have been a few medical issues that have come up since- but baby boy is just so good!! he is so sweet and calm, which has helped tremendously. he sleeps so well, eats even better! and hardly ever cries. one look at his cute baby face and everything seems so worth it. my mom was the biggest help in the world and because of an infection that i developed last week, along with some incision pain on my left side, she is returning this wednesday for ten days. i am excited to spend more time together- she is the perfect ‘mimi’ to parks. he loves when she holds him, talks about future adventures they will have together, and sings country songs to him. {when she sang george strait’s, i cross my heart – tears formed in my eyes. so sweet} overall, i can’t say enough about how grateful i am for all of her help- there are simply no words. we are also so thankful for all of the messages, prayers, and support we have received- daily cards, gifts, texts, decorations on our front door, a letter from my best friend, katie, from ohio when i returned home from the hospital {so amazing} cookies, delicious food, and visits. we are all so loved. 

is that the love you feel is so intense and overwhelming – that it’s actually somewhat terrifying. the love i feel is literally so hard that it makes my heart hurt to think about. no one can prepare you for that. i now know just how much my parents love me. i feel like a baby really shows us what real love is – the greatest type of love. my body isn’t the same and things have changed, but there is no greater honor, love, or blessing than to see a mom when i look in the mirror. as he continues to grow, i always hope that he finds the strength to face challenges with confidence, the wisdom to choose battles carefully, the desire to take lots of adventures, that he always stops to help someone along the way, remembers to listen to his heart, and has the courage to take risks.

… i hope he always remembers how much i love him and that i am so proud.

motherhood has brought a love like no other into my heart- a love that i never could have imagined.

and for that- my heart is exploding with gratefulness.

parks james~ in all the world, you will never find– a love as true as mine.