a new year
“because sometimes life is so fast and so absolute that the only way you can change things is by actually shifting your life utterly and totally to a different hemisphere. you can’t partially change. there’s no semi-revolution.” – cate blanchette
the start of a new year brings a fresh start, new hope, bright beginnings ahead. this year really excites me. this past year was one of many new starts; a year of more calmness, balance, being intentional as much as possible. as a result, i started to notice many positive changes and only hope to continue doing so over the course of the next year + while also adding a new member to our family in june. if this is your first or hundredth time visiting this space, i am so thankful for you.
with love on my heart, i wish you all the happiest new year.
in 2018- i want to change, not by little leaps, but by miles. i want to write down that every day is the best day. i want to work deeply on my marriage. i want to practice my faith, intimately and out loud. i want to learn new things, and not give up when i feel like giving up. i want to be less afraid of being in front of a camera (a life-long struggle) and i want to be more confident expressing my feelings to others. i want to be at peace with exactly where i am. i want to eat most of my food that’s given to us from the land. i want to unplug as much as possible. i want to do all things while considering what is best for my body and for my soul. i want to work out the body that God has given me, and enjoy the process of becoming stronger. i want to carve out time for yoga and hope to (finally) learn how to cook (so i can teach me own kids throughout their childhood), i want to pray often, and i want to go to the movies alone. (i am going tonight to see lady bird!) i want more family walks and i want motherhood to be real and honest and hopefully.
and i think most importantly, i want to let go of things that i should have let die a long time ago. i want to be at peace with who i have become and not let what used to keep me up at night plague my days- i am hopeful for a year that will bring peace and light in spaces that were too dark before. i want to chase whatever is in my heart, because time will pass. it always has, and it always will.
// beannacht, a blessing for the new year
“on the day when
the weight deadens
on your shoulders
and you stumble,
may the clay dance
to balance you.
and when your eyes
freeze behind
the grey window
and the ghost of loss
gets in to you,
may a flock of colours,
indigo, red, green,
and azure blue,
come to awaken in you
a meadow of delight.
when the canvas frays
in the currach of thought
and a stain of ocean
blackens beneath you,
may there come across the waters
a path of yellow moonlight
to bring you safely home.
may the nourishment of the earth be yours,
may the clarity of light be yours,
may the fluency of the ocean be yours,
may the protection of the ancestors be yours.
and so may a slow
wind work these words
of love around you,
an invisible cloak
to mind your life.”
so gentle and yet powerful.
much like i hope this year is… especially for each one of you.
… may flocks of color surround you each and every day.
thank you for being here.
xo
Comments (2)
Anonymous
January 4, 2018 at 4:50 pm
I love that blessing at the end, what beautiful words. And I love the simplicity of your new year wishes, yet how hard they can be for all of us. Like unplugging and being more mindful. And like simply being at peace with where you are….
nelle monaco
January 11, 2018 at 4:47 pm
so sweet! thank you so much… happy new year to you! xo
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